Real Love

My days and nights at college have been the happiest times of my life. I lived on a beautiful campus and had the priviledge of living among such wonderful people. I met my closest friends during college, whether they were friends I've had since the very first day or friends I've met in later years that I can't imagine my life without. I really did cherish every single moment I spent with them. I've been blessed with the best fucking friends in the universe and I love them with all my heart.

I'm not the same person I was in high school. College has changed my life. You've all impacted me in so many countless ways and everything I am is thanks to all of you. There really aren't words to express my love and gratitude.

Although I have extreme difficulty in admitting to myself that my college days are over, I am happy to know that the memories I've made over those years will be cherished forever. Because I will carry these memories with me, you will all be a part of me. Always.

Live To Tell The Tale

Mark and I did our last radio show on Monday night (our show "Ladleful O'Gravy" has been on the air for two years now). The playlist consisted of songs that were special to us throughout our four years of college:

"The Freshman" by The Verve Pipe

"Bring It" by Cobra Starship

"Slide" by Goo Goo Dolls

"Leaving Town" by Dexter Freebish

"If It Were Up To Me" by Rooney

"Semi-Charmed Life" by Third Eye Blind

"Sweetest Girl" by Wyclef Jean

"We Only Come Out At Night" by Smashing Pumpkins

"Plays Pretty For Baby" by Zolof The Rock & Roll Destroyer

"Believe" by The Bravery

"Umbrella" by Rihanna

"All The Things She Said" by T.A.T.U.

"Make Your Own Kind Of Music" by The Mamas & The Papas

"Feel Good Inc." by Gorillaz

"You Never Give Me Your Money" by The Beatles

"Section 12: Hold Me Now" by The Polyphonic Spree

"Sleepyhead" by Passion Pit

"Forever" by Chris Brown

"Ambling Alp" by Yeasayer

"Wake Up" by Arcade Fire

"T-Shirts" by Still Life Still

"In Our Bedroom After The War" by Stars

I really enjoyed our last radio show. It was a musical journey through our college career that made me feel so happy and so sad at the same time. It was bittersweet. We got to share the stories behind each song with our listeners as well.

On our walk back from the radio show, a group of people in black shirts who were doing a scavenger hunt spotted by "I heart RCNJ" shirt that I was wearing and shouted, "YOU!" They ran up to me and asked if they could have my shirt, and I told them they couldn't, so instead I temporarily traded shirts with some random kid and we took a picture. They told me not to give my t-shirt away or take pictures with any other scavenger hunt groups, so I agreed. Before I could make it back to my room, I got stopped twice by other groups. One group of sorority girls literally chased me down and promised to "kiss and make out" with me if I let them take a picture (but that didn't actually happen... bummer). Another group somehow convinced me to let them borrow my shirt for the night and they promised they'd return it (but they haven't as of yet), so I ended up walking back to my room shirtless. Part of me is really going to miss living on a college campus when random and crazy shit like that could happen at any time.

I've been in such a nostalgic state lately, and I think I've developed this habit of looking to the past because the future is full of so much uncertainty on so many levels.

What I am certain about, however, is that if I could go back and time and pick any college in the world to attend, it would still be Ramapo College.